LESS THAN 50 HOURS REMAINING...

LESS THAN 50 HOURS REMAINING...of my thirties! :) Ohhhh, I know! I am supposed to be sad, and lie about my age...and maybe even cry - isn't that what any normal red-blooded American gal would do? Should do? Is expected to do?!? BUT NOT ME! I am excited, happy....almost blissful!!! I don't know why? I just am! Maybe I feel like I have "come into my own", or am just excited to see what adventure lies ahead for me in life? I guess instead of it feeling like a curse -> I just think of it as God giving me a 'promotion'!! :) Do you ever wonder why you feel the way you do? why you are who you are? I do! When I was a kid, I would sometimes imagine (wish/hope) that one day I'd get an envelope from God that says: "Your mission is..." and my life would ALL make sense! That everything that has ever puzzled me or troubled me; all of the hurts and the pains, and the emotions...they would all be worth it because NOW I would KNOW what it was all for! What all those things were teaching me...training me for, who I was meant to be!! Well, I haven't gotten the 'envelope' yet! ;) but I have seen the fruit of the 'labor'...and it is good! If you have never spent time 'in the valley', you will never fully appreciate just how high the mountain is!! IT'S TRUE! Weeping may endure for a night, but JOY really DOES come in the morning! Ya see, when I was younger I didn't always think I could live through my experiences - and to be honest, I didn't always want to -> but I guess now that I know I CAN survive, even when it doesn't always FEEL like I can... it kinda makes me excited to see what "my mission is...should I choose to accept it!' ;)